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manner. I do not want to be a hypocrite. I wish to
love and serve my maker. I have been thoughtless
full of callowness to the innumerable mercies
extended to me by a merciful Providence, read his blessed
word with carelessness mocked him in a [?]
his name and calling upon him with my lips
and my heart was not engaged & [?], done evil
and been unkind to my fellow being taking
care to gratify my own sinful propensities;
without consulting the feelings and wishes of
others. Lord have mercy upon me let me cease
to do evil learn to do well. Prepare to render a strict
account of all my actions on Earth inherit [?]
Thy help another and better world
January 17th
Through Divine mercy I am permitted once more
to use my pen, I pray God it be to some good for I feel
and know without his help all things are impossible
I have been unmindful of what it was my duty to
do. I have been disregardful of the blessed command
ment to love my neighbor as myself. I feel my burden
my besitting sin yet unconquered and I am yet
a prey to hasty temper, worldly affairs, and
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